Tuesday, June 3, 2008

how am i gonna be me without the people who make me who i am??

the more i think about leaving, the more i think about how important my friends are. my friends have seriously shaped every single thing about me. the people you surround yourself with constantly rub off on you soo much, even if you don't notice it. me and my friends are exactly the same. we have the same likes, dislikes, looks, personalities, senses of humor, and mannerisms. you pick up on little things people around you do without even noticing until it makes you like one person in the same.
i'm afraid that when i make new friends in college that same thing is going to happen, and when i come home and hang out with my high school friends, it's not going to be the same.
omgggggggggggggg

Monday, June 2, 2008

college

i can't believe i'm going to college in less than three months. i can't even begin to imagine what it's going to be like...
i'm really excited, but at the same time i am soo terrified. i'm sure i'll have fun, everyone does, but since i've never experienced it before, i just don't know what it's going to be like.
i can't believe i am sitting in my last 6th period class ever. i'll never wake up again and go to a full day of school. i just can't imagine life without school. as much as i complain about it, i love it. school isn't just to learn academics, school basically shapes your whole life. we're at school for a good majority of every day. this is where we make our friends and our enemies, we eat, we laugh, we ditch.. we have so many experiences here. it's just so weird to think that i'm never coming back.
i'm going to miss my friends so much. when i hear older people talk about how they never even talk to their high school friends anymore, i'm in shock. my friends are my entire life. i see them all day at school and i hang out with them every second i'm not in school. how can i not be with them every day? my best friends are going to Michigan, Iowa, and Florida. how can i be myself without the people who made me who i am??
ahhhhhh